Problematic

I have a confession to make. I'm a psycho. And not in the cute "I'm just like Harley Quinn, I'm a bad girl with an attitude and daddy issues, I like to post memes about what a 'bitch' I can be" way. Not in a cool fun "I take a lot of drugs but can do insane knife tricks when I'm on them and we might go on a spree of felonies tonight, but we've never been so ALIVE" way. I'm damaged and I fuck things up. I know I've gone on like 4 tirades about how I am not damaged and toxic, but I think I was really just trying to talk myself out of it. I hurt people. I am childish and freak out about not getting what I want so I hurt people and I'm rude. When people show up to my parties in the wrong order I have a fucking episode. I touch penises I am not supposed to touch. I stand next to busy roads and have arguments with people holding a shitty lingering threat that if they say the wrong thing I'm going to throw myself into the str