Defeated
We were so full of hope and youthful exuberance, weren't we? Isn't that just the least inventive turn of phrase? The house is a mess. I am a mess. I have once again fallen short on motivation and energy. I have once again fallen short. Yesterday I learned after watching the ex's child that the ex has taken up again with the girl he briefly attempted to cheat on me with- luckily this revelation came toward the end of his shift and I was able to bounce pretty quickly afterward. He said they were just friends. He said he didn't really understand how this hurt me. I suppose I don't really understand how this hurts me. For context this other girl has been in his life longer than I have. She's the reason things did not work out with the mother of his child, beyond that they were fundamentally incompatible, and he had repeatedly stated she was a burden when we first started dating. However, he was very hard pressed to get rid of her. There were episodes i